Friday, April 15, 2005
GRaDEs PSYCHEDELIC
dont kneo wat the word mean?
PSYCHEDELIC means
"Of, characterized by, or generating hallucinations, distortions of perception, altered states of awareness, and occasionally states resembling psychosis"
derailed or loss focus..
yes, i admit i was being overly upset by trival things that dont hold much impt.. but it is just disappointing to have put in so much adn get back so little in return...
i know i have fallen once or twice or maybe a few times.. none off them have keep mi down .. i got to keep moving on..
it is kinda farnie htat i watch telly the whole day today.. trying to cheer myslef up.. noramally i will go for a long run, a spin on my bike or a swim.. but i watch the serial huo xia qu... poor kidney patients spent 2-3 hrs a day for "daily"sis how they afford to find the time to do other things? then also cannot drink too much... that translates into cannot do sports.. cannot do many tihngs..
come to think of it , i am so fortunate.. i mean i am bless wiht gd health.. maybe no so gd looks.. not so gd eyesight..
althought i try to walk by faith and no by sight..
now i think i realise y many ppl need religon.. cos they are lost in the materialsitic pursue instead of the really impt things in life.. i tink this is wat many religon preaches.. regradless of wat kind..
very sad lar.. in the serial, the liang yi die..
wo shi ge lu miang,( i am a gangster)
ru gou wo shi le ( if i die)
wo de sheng, yi ge gei ni, yi ge ge wo de ah ma( my kidneys, one give you and one give my ah ma)
cool..
then there was jiao dian... show cases AIDS one.. got one grad... kena aids... i mean his future is gone liao lor.. just like that... last time divison 3 RSM told this story to both men and commander.. there was a guy.. in this unit.. kena HIV.. the senior commanders are plannig to charge him... but he say. 'God have already given him a death sentence, why be so cruel to charge him agian'
although he alwyas catch mi for wearing inner shirt, i kinda repsect him for his statement..
there was the usually america chopper... my fav show at the moment.. watch liao very ahppy... temperary only before i get knock back to reality...
i am so busy.. doubt i will have time to buy kammy present... ask kee for help.. but he dontknoewa tto buy.. hope i can find some time on wed to buy present...
dingy still at lab.. dingy ask mi to find GOD.. hahahaha it is so farnie.. last i am the one going to church asking him to come a long.. now it is the other way.. this is not the worst tho.. the worst is from frankie.. he told mi this which never make my life quite the same
" it was u and wen xiang who borught mi to christ, now it saddens mi to see u no longer in his light"
yes.. y ? if so great is the light? y are things not going my way..and bad things keep happening? dont tell mi this is a test from GOd..i rather take eveyr thing in my own hands....
maybe i am rite?
maybe i am wrong?
i dont knoe..
it is kena farnie that i got to knoe winnie this sem more ..never tho i would find his presence so amusing.. he is really a joker ... he seem sad but not as sad as mi.. but none theless i wish him all the best with watever problem he is facing...
everyone got their sets of problems...
haiz
with love
11:03 PM
