Friday, October 28, 2005
Pls DonT Take my sunshine away..
do u sometimes get the feeling of happiness when u see that someone u like?
the sight of that person will just put a smile on ur facE?
do u? do u?
i managed to knoe eyecandy and exchanged phone numbers..and spoke to her twice before.
i was really really really happy when i managed to get her number, keeps mi smiling from ear to ear. jus maybe for once i thought my life is going to be better.
but happiness is short-lived when i found out she is attached.
BOo...
it was really a emotional roller coaster..
of cos lar.. ppl so nice sure attach one wat.. duh..
only leftover like moi and the rest of the nerdy guys in uni are still wandering like lost ghost.
i did a lot of pulls.. until i lost count.now my pinkie swelling..
maybe i haven told a lot of ppl.. i always put on a brave front. a stylish act. i always dont let my heart govern my actions,telling myself i am okie by myself..
inFACt i am NOT.. i saddens mi greatly to see couples holding hands.. going on date..
i yearn to have that feeling of waking up in the morning and thinking of that special someone..gives u the drive and passion in wat u do.maybe that explains why i am dragging my arse to sch nowdays..
some one to msg wat u doing..
some one to ask for movie .. i cant even ppl to watch a movie at times.how pathatic..
some one to jion activities togehter..
someone to go cycling at ecp.. doing laps alone at ECP on my bike can be very lonely.
just some company when u are down
some one to share ur happiness.
that's asking for a lot?
to all those attached guy and gals alike: do cherish who ur other half.. cos there are many like moi.. lonely souls.who dont even have a chance to begin with.
i used to have this childish thinking that my very first gf will be my wife.
yah rite! bunch of bull..
i cant even take stuff like this..
i can truthly tell i got a heart. cos i felt it hurt very much just now..although i always like to belief other wise.
ppl are often asking: how come u are still single..
u not bad mah... hard to find a gf meh?
u gay huh? u too fussy issit?
i swear the next person who say something like tat or equilavent.. will get his/her arse kick by mi..intention or un-intentional.
the fact is i sucks lar..
hey rocky.. why dont u take a leak and see ur reflection.. the reason for being single is cos u just sucks..
if not why u think u suck a failure in relation huh?
the advert read: if she not married, u still stand a chance"
yha rite!!wat a fiendish thought.
i thought tat it doesnt matter wat she feels . as long as i like her can liao..
perhaps things could have been worse. she could have rejected moi the first time i said hi..
she would not have given mi her number at all..
maybe this is the best senario for a attached girl in reponse to a lonely guy..
at least i knoe where i stand bah.
i tink i had enough le..
pls bring moi to a a world without love bah..
maybe then i will feel much happier.
my heart is closed and will never be open agian.
cos i really dont belief it in any more.
with love
7:05 PM
