Sunday, May 14, 2006
i was never alive..
was looking at piggy's vietnam pic... cant help but to compare.
yes indeed singapore ahve every thing they lack, better roads, better housing,
better food, cleaner place, greener trees.
but the one thing we lack.. a happy smile..
at one pt in my life i tink i lost mine.. along with the 4 millions singaporeans..
just a facet of life? i dont knoe.. but the vietnam kids althoght they have lesser but they are happier.. we have so much but we are not happi... wat it is tat i am aksing for... i am so lost now...
BB1 is lost soul 1 cos alex issint by his side
i am lost soul 2 cos i cant fight the demon within moi
jack is lost soul 3 cos he had some problems too..
eveyrybody dreams and wishes for sometihng.. i dontknow wat is mine anymore..
only those that finish the race first seem to be happier.. but out of the million competiors.. only one can emerge victorious... the happiness of one on the sorrow of a million..
just wondering how come i am born lesser .. how come alway the sillest, the lowest grade, the top never belong to moi no matter how hard i try..
i just a loser...yet i refuse to admit it... how sucky.. if ppl with 2nd lower cannot find job.. i tink i shd just die right here.. cos the future is not bright..uni promises to nuture talent.. it din nuture lar... it only kill off those lesser..and package it to make it seem like that they nuture them.. wat? not true? then u are telling mi that uni will accept an ITE student and make then become a Freaking FRist class student? yah rite, most prof only care abt their reseach and publish papers.. u tink they seruou care abt the undergrad? tink again..
that is the reason why ppl lack integrity.. the easiest way to get things done not necessariyl means the right thing..that is why some ARSE hole stole my hp in the tolet. some ARse hole stole labbbie stuff.. and some ARse hole stole sunbear's climbing shoes... u know how sunbear's like those shoes.. well i dont blame them totally.. soceity fault.. all it is interlink.. too competivive, outcast will try to disrupt the syetem and make ends meet.. too busy.. the young lacks upbring.. maybe a few more years all the kids will be calling their maids "mommy" and the second sunday everymay will be known as "happy maids day"... who knows..
i only rem teh happier times i had in sec sch, kee, kammy dingy, heman , jack. hope to relive the fun days again..teh fun days with marko, groovy and weiyang..perhaps this is wat u do when u are old and rocking on a chair.. remininces abt the good old days.. for GOD had blessed us with memories..
sometimes i never felt alive before .. i wish i wasnt a town mouse... but a country mouse....
but country mouse has his own set of problems.
with love
11:29 PM
