Sunday, November 11, 2007
weekends
i dont look forward to weekend with the same anticipation anymore..
i dunno wat to do..
aimless..
meaningful..
just let me sleep for eternity.
do not disturb...=(
with love
2:45 PM
Thursday, November 08, 2007
irritating... on my nerves
why do i get a feeling that i am always taken for granted?
does having a Car means i have to fetch everyone for organised outing?
failing to do so... will have me blamed. like wat u did.
hell yeah... dont ever ask me for any grp runs anymore.. cos i wont even be bothered to entertian...
so wat if the marathon is coming up? dont come to me as ur source of motivation or wat not... cos seriously.. u can do wat u wnan i dont realli care..
i am not interested in how much u ran today, yesterday or the day before..
so pls dont report to me and try to compare milage with me..
i am also not interested in how excited u are over todays run... which i am not excited abt at all.. i am more than happy not to run.
i dont wnana hear how any seconds u shaved off running the same route compare to last week..
if u cannot travel to ECP to run.. pls dont not rely on me as ur means of transportation..
and if u cannot drive ur family car, pls dont ask so many ppl along.. and expect me to fetch all of them..
sounds like i am the selfish one?
let me tell u why i am not..
I always waited for when you are late for late night run at West coast. sometimes 1hr . sometimes 30 mins ...
i could have completed the run with the waiting time.. have u ever been early?
i cycle all the way to ur house to run with ya... have you ever cycle to my house and run with me? even once at all?
marathon is suddenly so impt to you? i ran the marathon straight after our batam trip..
did i place so much emphaize on the toopid marathon?
i alwasy ask you for runs and you say u got classes you got church.... you got ur own prioiritty i also got my own...
dont get me wrong.. you are a good frined.. but ur love for running is realli getting on my nerves..
i alwasy trg alone. if u haven already realise.
it's good to have an occasion companion by the side.. but ultimately they wont go all the way with ya..
i seen too many le..
my dear marko.. now lost prob angry with me..
loti.. whom i only hear from when he need a lift to the start pt...
this are all my frineds....
now tell me where u stand and where i stand..
i am not angry
just disappointed.. over ur selfishness and accusing me ..
perhaps i wrong you.
then may i ask y are u so upset over this. have the thought ever cross ur mind tat i cannot compromise ?..
you also got car wat? dont tell me lame excuse like ur paretns are going for breakfast. and stuff.. just use the car afer breakfast...
i realli dont udnerstand the logic..
but watever the case. trg is alone.
the rationale is simple.. just like the bar and me..
alone is somewhat the best..
just me and myself
i am no team player..
with love
9:56 PM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
losing my soul.
been alone at home the whole weekend.
the feeling totally sucks..
bought some back log home to do.. cos deadline is mid week.. how toopid..
guess it totally sppoilt my weekend.
Suppose to meet some frineds for dinner on sat. with gifts all ready but was canceled.
somehow i dont have control over my life.. it is just work..
dont reach home till after 10..
the fact tat my boss is a no life person donest equal to me having to work late rite?
So riduculos.. cos im the only in uniform in the branch doesnt mean i need to stay late while the rest can knock off at 5.30 pm sharp.. WTH.. i dont even get OT pay..
i dont even get OFf.. speaking of which i still got a few unclaim of which i tink will never get paid back..
this is the system, this is the culture.. it sucks to work in such a environemnt. unequal treatment. full of critisim.. politic driven... fault finding.. the more u do the more fault u get.. dont do = no fault.
i dread going to work.. seriously i look forward to nothing..
i lost all those i once hold tightly onto..
i am myself and i do things for myself..
im not that kind and i wont pretend to be tat someone ppl wnan me to be..
im sick
im tired
im weak
im fat
im slow
im digusted
im wrong
im cant be bother
im watever u say i am
waatever..
lame chop
with love
10:43 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
lifes a bitch ( wats new)
hmm... something terrible happen yest.. some Arsehole in a bridal car try to beat the red light and smash onto the car i was driving. He dont even have the guts to settle the issue and scoot off . runnning away like a little girl.. this person is call
*Wong yuwei* Spineless coward. if you cant Drive .. Dont Freaking Drive..
if something ever happen to tian.. i swear you be dead somehow.
i try very much to maintian my cool during the whole ordeal.. not many of us can say we have the experience of dealing with accidents. in my opinion, it is a clear case of beating the red light and smash right on onto me. when i call to report the matter to Traffic police.. they advise there is no need for Traffic police as there is not injury and by their definition of injury means amubulance need to be at scene. i mean WTH rite? i cant even fault the Wong Driver on the spot. the Wong's Dad.just say talk to his insurance and claim the damages .. wat is most blood boiling is that he say his car is bigger hence he suffer more damage.. when i try to reason with him.. he say he is not the one driving the CAr at the pt of impact so he cant comment and wanted to drive off the car.. when i ask for his Timid girlie Yuwei to come back to the scene , he say there was no need to.. just talk to his insurance..
when i call via Phone to the Sissy guy, the response is tok to insurance!!!!
WTF!!! dont freaking Call no insurance when you are in the Freaking Wrong..
i had since made a incident report and i have highlight the matter to TRaffic Police.. unless i get a answer for this reckless driver to be punish.. i will not REST...
I had put the life of someone i love in danger.. if the car is to hit onto tian.. i would not know wat to do.. something is definitely amissed for him to scoot off like this.. i feel helpless for not being able to get back justice.. im thankful to be alive with a few bruises. i will chose a harder right than a easier wrong.. i will not let the matter rest...
my weekend was gone and spoilt by his Screw up reckless driver.. i wonder how much peace can he have when he eat his wedding dinner.. Karma believers know beta.
the Farnie thingy is tat i was still looking at bikes the day before.. if i was riding then i confirm i would be at the hospital now.high riser handle bars.. Drool.
Pretty bike for a hippy guy.
i wanted pretty much to live the american Dream. ride a harley and Cruise ard town
updates from the previous post..pictures from Retro party.
tian..
Brea and chibi
the silly bunch..
thanks for the lovely Celebration!
things to Do:
get back in shape .. the full maraathon is coming 11 more weeks.
spent less. money is hard to earn..
get a nice watch ( see last blog)
i know i haven been doing this for a long long long time.. writing cards and getting gifts for my close frineds.
this sat will meet frined for dinner..
i sTill haven take my Pressie from xiao lou and buddy cindy..OMG so guilty
Adriel i still haven forget my meet up with ya!
and camper still holding on to my pressie!!
yikess yikes...
pls bear with me. i will arrnage meet up with ya ppl..
tired le. time to lala le..
with love
10:32 PM
Sunday, August 26, 2007
SomeWhere over the rainbow
so Fast August already..my Bday coming up reaalli soo.
hard to believe im aready mid twenties.. hahaa feels like old...
had celebration at minds cafe with my Sec frineds.had a toopid "retro" theme. alaways like hanging outwith them
especially Dingy jack and jingy...will put some pics when dingy upload them.
for this dinner, we espcially went to shop for retro stuff.. so silly... avaitor shads and retro shirt..
bought other shirts too.Stone cold one.. my Fav..keke. retial therapied. happi
Ah min and Brea brea Grace the occasion too..
Feel quite guilty.. seems like we area alwyas drown in work and forget the friedns ard us...Brea Brea looks kinda tired.
im pretty sure im not the only one..
woke up at 4 am just to go run.. 21km ... seems like quite short also seem like quite long
despite not training i still got s sub 2 timing... dont feel as motivated to run as before.. maybe it is the Army factor.. too much army guys and too crowded. next race will be real run.. before tat i be supporter for Great easatern or Shape run.. keke
maybe it is just me.. or maybe laziness.
wasnt too bad a run.
got a silly call from jing zai asaking me where to get a rock lee plush..
so heart Warming.. i never purposely give u the link to hint u to get present for me wor..
i wanna this one!! GEt for me.. kekeke..
hahaa
Jing Zai thanks for being such a Great frined despite making me wait 1 hr 37min and 58 sec at botak jones for you.. Hope things with EAT work out.. ahaha
got a movie invite from debra.. on my B day.. my supplier of free movie tickets.
one of my goal for my 25 years is to remain in touch and meet up wiht frineds..
speaking of which i sitll haven meet oe fo my frineds.. she pretty upset and waant to mail me my gift.. so so so so Sorrie.. haiz..
Work haven been Realli smooth sialling .. a lot oof shit pilling and dropping..
thanks to me Darlin tian.. i was about to get by despite being so tired and drained..
btw i found a reaalli Cheap watch shop at bencoolen..
got white color one.. nicer
or the military style one
it is either the adidas watch or the G shock.. wat say you.. whcih is nicer?
anyway my Fav gift receive is a musical box!!
so nice and soothing !! it totally make my daY!!!
with love
6:22 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
for a beta future?
no body knows wat lies ahead. try living life to the max u say?...
i dunno how so..
spending the weekend at home aint exactly living life to the max..
thinking back. its been some time since i had so much time to myself over the weekend..
dunno wat to do with them..
how ironic.. been lookng so much towards the weekend only to find i am stuck at home.
i dont need ppl non related.. not even close enough to call frineds to ditate my weekends..
strangers who take drinks without asking the first time they meet.. wat? he is ur boss? wat a generous boss..
slip in and out of sleepy land. drifted away in a subconcious environment.. wonder when will u be msging me..
perhap i need just a alittle comfort from someone.. anyone ?
i wanna make this work.. but i cant do it alone...
from the dumb guy who can differtiate a skirt from a dress...
leave me alone..
with love
5:25 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
finally !!the rock has come back!!!
hmm.. feels kinda werid to be bloggin all over agian.. no particular reason
kinda miss blogging .. smirkz..
i hate emotional episodes. am going to leave my guys as they move on with theirs lifes. realli.. i sadden moi greatly to seee the guys leave. the day the flag was handed back to Hq.. the company had officially closed down.. leaving behind nothing but dust and memories of yesterday.
seem only like yesterday we were up training.. doing early moring run.. swim training.. convention trg and ops deployment.. sheesh..
i tried to hold back my tears.. manage to somehow convince myself tat they be ahappier bunch outside. and all doesnt matter as long i rem them..
i will see them next week anywayat the dinner function..
am i too emotional for a guy? hmmm..
been of fine lately.. just a change in job place..still getting use to it... hopefully i dont get fat at office job.. ahaaha but working hours are office.. but i guesss shd have OT for the intial part...
transport a problem. take an hours plus to travel.. 2 hours plus back and forth..
daddy's getting a small CAR!!... a lot of second tho.. $$$ issue.. but Thanks DAD!!
thanks for wat all u have done.. love ya....
just to update: there a wonderful girl in my life. tian.. my life mainly revolves ard her. she is everything tat is to moi..
sorrie dautie.. still ahaven catch up with ya.. and my x mas present stil over at ur place..
haven meet up with muru and rosy!!
muru: u still own us a treat..
and rosy after ur exam we go Whack BBuuFFEEETTTT.. k? kinda miss ya guys..
still gottaa meet a few friens like Xm, sze, and biker chick.!!
hook on bleach anad prison break which was introduce to me by tian.
season 3 faster come out!! ahaaha
time to sleep.. still got a long weeek ahead!!
with love
11:29 PM
got white color one.. nicer
or the military style one