Thursday, July 21, 2005
TTT= Things Take Time..
Not every prayer are answered.. not every request are approve.. not every expectation are meet...
" i dont wanna listen to ur sad story....."
it has been a busy week at camp...i been trianing hard at nite abt 12midnight..camp mates say i am crazy.. but i have no choice.. to get stronger i need to do this..
HEy i also wanna rot and relac and watch telly..but i cant!! I got a dream to catch .. i got my principles.. got my promise...
it is indeed true that every thign takes time... today there is a run.. i came in first... effrot paid off just a little .. but i am not contented.. i still need to push teh limit...Wooah....
i always tink abt stuff that motivate mi during the run..but this time i was kinda distracted..got a werid dream last nite. replusion on first contact. wonder y..
" Dont Wish it was easier , Wish u were better!!"
out of the blue i msg janice out of gd will.. but sadly enough.. she replied... her dad had cancer just last month... it is last stage.. and it is serious....sad..
i kena felt guilty that his daugher in not gd hands of mine..i cant.. dont ask mi y... just cant... it seems like yesterday that it was CNY and they are like happy and all....
i cant help but reflect how fragile life is..soldiers die... illness... bird flu.... bombing.. it i am stronger i will reduce the risk of such happening.. and prevent others.. all the more i wannt get stronger...ARGH!!111 but rem TTT.. take it in my stride...
i was complaining last time i am a stay in persoonel.. but hey i realise it is not so bad after all... i get to know all the wonderful ppl there... jackie, wutain,eric,stephen, kevin. ben koh. gregg, earnest... u guys are fun to hang out with... maybe taht is wat i need to get away from my loner nature.... the loneliness, comlainging, the poor grades, the sad thoughts, the broken heart, the sucky feeling..
SHooo... Shoo... get away all of U!!!
i tihnk time in uni have change stuff... for some time i am comfortable staying at home.. now i stay at camp... now it is jsut like last time... i loike staying at camp... training whole day and chill out at mess at nite... it makes u more apprecaiteive of stuff outside... definately....
but i always rem this .. when every one and every thing fail mi.. i will not give up on myself and push on wiht wat life throws at mi...i will make it happen...
there are no permanent problems. jsut temperary situation without solution..
when expectations/ hopes/wished are not meet, i will try learning not to be sad... for i will live to see another day...
with love
9:30 PM
