Sunday, December 04, 2005
I suck le.
U suck le seems to be lingo for the msn trio group. in a friendly non offensive sort of way.
this year marathon was pretty bad for moi.. lack of sleep, lack of food, lack of mental strengh and lack of training..
i sleep at 2 am and woke up at 4am. i know.i shd have sleep more. i was tired during the run. cos i went to rosy house to transfer to her naruto and play batminton with muru, rosy and lao lao.. new friend,lao lao.
i was down with cough recently so that din not help with training..
the carbo loading was not even done properly. had egg sandwich and chicken sandwich at 1.30am. some hungry pangs towards teh end of the run.
the first 21 km was okie.. but my mind was pretty blank..no moitivation.. it is quite scary.. when i suddenly thought abt giving up. For the first time in all my runs, i felt this way. i dunno wat happen also. my legs was okie.. my breathing was deep and good.. but then my mind was not there. i ask why am i always pushing myself when i bearly train enough. that's it.. i gave up on my timing .. and decide to have fun running..and decide to wait for loti.. he is like 4km behind moi.. i walk 4 km till he caught up..
anyway he din wait for moi when i juice out at 36km.. so ungrateful one!!!!!! waited for him on so many occasions..oh well.. it just a personal thingy. every man for himself.. there are not such things call "waiting for each other".. NOw i learn.. cant blame him. cos i also every time break off and run..
the frist marathon was for experience.. tahnsk to alvin who introduce moi to it.
he got cramp and i guess i was the only idiot to ran to and forth just to give him deep heat from the safety tentage.
the second was for pride, i just wnan outdo myself.. i got a 3.50 timing for the second one. thanks to Kok yew. we were ocs frineds and COcc mates. he is a very good runner.. i always recognise him by his runnning style. we both din wanan lose to each other then... we just keep pacing and before i knew it we had a good time. anyway saw kokyew this year too. he had injury. after walking for 4 km he is still behind.. oh well. u better take good care manz..
the third for for love, that was notlong before i got the lovely feeling.. just wanna run fast so that i can say hey, look ur BF is not weak one.. haha sometthng liket tat lar. egoistic statement.. anyway i get so envy of those ppl with GF situated at specific location to cheer then on with banners and some energy food.. how sad.
the forth probaly the worst run. weather was very hot, mind was not there. saw a few frineds. climbing frineds, dragon boaters.. it is so weird. although i slow down so much and walking so much. they are still slower. Maybe it is not jsut moi that have problems.. but the one thing i get out of this run is tat it gives moi the reason to train harder.. i knoe.. all those mugging had robbed away my fitness.. so hate it.
but i have my rush of adenaline. so i was glad.
i made a promise to mrs lee that i will be better when i saw her after the race.. she was not here this year i tink.. maybe i was too slow to catch a glimpse of her. haiz..
thanks to those who msg and wish moi luck for the race, i had let u ppl down..
it is the same thing everything.. i set my sight on something and i cant achieve it..
i wana get good at climbing i cant do it.
i wanan do one arm pull, i cant do it.
i Suck le..
the next time u see moi, i will be a stronger person.
definately....
cos i wont suck no more.
with love
6:53 PM
