Wednesday, December 07, 2005
its always like tat.
it is always like that ... never change.. ppl do stuff for self interest.. FACT... hulloo.!!. dont be naive and think otherwise.. this is the real world..
Take it or leave it..
i tink i will leave it.. it is just moi..moi and my
weirdo thingy.. as always..
how often do i get a time to slack on a weekday afternoon? bearly. i din even wanan to catch up on my preicous sleep. just had a whole nite of exercise..tho i am really tired.. just needed somebody to go out and have some nice brownie together..
just sit back and basked in the lazy afternoon atmostphere.. look and jeer at the race rat u been running. is it
so hard..?
yes.. it is.. every body is busy.. working.. slacking.. Wooing girls..surely life is more than just money and work.. wat abt the happiness and those laughters? surely work is never ending.. life is ever learning..
only when ur frineds are bored then they come and find u. only when they needed u.. it is never too late to learn yet another lesson of life now..i din chhoose to be a
lonely person.. the nature of humans make moi this way...yah.. it had made moi into a hideous creature of extreme jealously. surviving on the reflection of lousiness that runs deeep inside moi.
just recently..loti din wait up for moi when i waited for him for so many times.. din even have the courtesy to reply sms when i msg him... such frineds? oh man... why am i such a sucker for friends..
argh when i call him the past few days, the answer was just .. "sorri i was watching a moive so cannt answer" WTH?? surely it is not that hard to return a missed call.. the
GReat pretender is so Great in hidding and putting on a fake front.
if i was a friend that meant sometHing.. surely a miss call will be return..
DONT go ARD Msging how U and ur love DEvelop.. i am not ur sucker who listen to u bragged abt how great a lover u are.. for all i stinky care.. if u are ever sensitive to sense it..
it is like telling how fast u can run to a cripple.
it is like telling how nice the sunset to a blind person.
it is like telling how much food u wasted to a starving child..
dont u SEE ? why are u telling moi all those stuff? i dont envy u.. i dont need lesson from ur life story.. dont share with moi when u forget everything abt moi when u got that sepcial someone..i dont wanna listen.. i dont care...
but
The GREAT pretender once again take it with a big silly smile acting happy and all.sorry this is not abt affairs of the heart.. it is guy here.. i have given up on love sometime ago..i am not like one of those jerk..
i get kinda piss when ppl dont reply msges. simply cant be bother.. why.. it is only tat special person u like get msges every 20 sec. yet it is so GOD damn FReaking hard for u to reply one sms to moi.. why are ppl so FARK up one... why cant guy and girl be goo freind ?
i bought sometinhg for janice sometime ago for x mas.. this incident sort of brough this up. she cant be bothered since she found her special someone.. nope i wont be swallowing my pride to keep in touch with u.. u are not worth it.. sorri.. the pressie for u will be given to someone more worthy or i can simply keep it for myself
i lost the ability to give... i have become such a stroooge.. i dont tink i'll be writing out my remaining x mas cards .. those who have recieve this years are the few fortunate one..i would just use the $$ to buy stuff i like.. like those in my wish list..materialistic happiness are more dependaable ..it works only temperary but as long as i keep sustaining it. it is shallow.. it is not everlasting. it is superficalial.. i am the
gREAt pretender rem?
horses are always seeking greener pastures. horse do no eat on grass land it has already grazed.. wat had pass are meant to pass.. memories are a special way to keep it happy. dont re-live ..cos it wont never be the same.
time changes ppl...
it had change not only u
but moi.
with love
6:30 PM
